Monday.

So it's Monday I guess. Fuck my life. I feel like hell, I have a terrible headache and all I can think about is my desire for drugs. What drugs? any. I don't care what they are I just need something to alter myself.
Intake was terrible despite my gym visit so im pretty depressed

Anyways, on to better things.What happened Saturday. I broke. It happens often, but lately I seem to shatter to a point of no repair. With T in my life everything falls about at 10x the rate it used to. I miss him dearly :( So anyways. I called my drug kid. He's a dealer but he's a nice guy. He came over and gave me a hug and rocked me back and forth as I sobbed into his arms and tried to regain composure--which didnt happen. He gave me some pills and then I snuck out to go get high with him and his brothers. It was awkward but oh well it was worth it. I ended up going back to his house and falling asleep in his bed.. with him and his oldest brother. lol. yeah I woke up and his mom was making pancakes and insisted I had some despite the fact she had no idea anybody was over, and had never met me. I have a feeling it happens to her often.

Tonight i'm going to post sad pictures with my thoughts underneath so bear with me in this dark shadow so called life.

Comment Responses:

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Run: It truly can suck major balls at times

Karolina: Thank you so much for your support <3 I'm saving your email and I will email you next time this occurs which probably will be soon

Ahava: Honestly I have no clue what's going on anymore. I'm heavier then ever before and all hope has been squished. I wish you the best of luck <3

Christina: Oh golly it seems harder and harder every minute. Safety is comfort which my life lacks.

Molly-sauras-rex: Thank you for your kindness<3

Kim: You are soooo correct I'm glad theres others that understand and your optimism is greatly appreciated <3

Thanks for all the comments ladies <3 I'm glad to see some new followers and commenters :)