Skinny Girls Have It Better.

Will cheated on me. Then left me. Yeah. He's the one that left. Pretty pathetic. Story of my life. To him I'm simply a 'stupid high school bitch' and an 'easy skank'. Awesome right? Skinny girls don't get cheated on and then left. The guy at least cheats and chooses to stay. More motivation for me I suppose. Be strong and happy Halloween

Superb Sunday

Shits been crazy lately but on the bright side I feel skinnyish. I need to watch what I eat more but damn it's hard. I'm such a bad blogger I feel like I dropped off r The planet. I'm sorry guys <3 i have to go because my boyfriends being whiny and jealous but stay skinny ladies <3

Sick Days

Sorry im so shitty at consistant blogging. I'm home sick so I have time todayyy :) It's all rainy out which sucks but oh well. I'm trying so hard to be good today but on the bright side theres hardly anything to eat. Will and I are doing okayish. He's all into commitment and shit which idk thats what I used to want but now i'm like ehhhhh. He's just not right for me but I feel bad telling him that. I thought guys were supposed to like no commitment sex. wtf?

Anyways theres sort of a new guy in my life :) He's in my business class and he's been soooo flirty. So remember a long time ago about that bet of me fucking B? Yeah well he found out. Idk if I told you guys that already but yeah ahahha. Hes actually been a lot nicer to me since that but now I don't really want him.
 J, his friend is sooooo seexy. He's already in the guide to people I mention and I tihnk i;m going to put him in tylers place. yeah he flirts with me all the time and of course I flirt back. He's super fun. He always throws things at me and picks me up and fake fights. Hes a blast to be around. I already get texts from the other guys in that class saying how he's such a player and he only wants sex but i'm totally okay with that. I'm super happy and it seems like it's going great. We get in lotion fights and everything always ends up getting physical hahah :)

Yesterday we had a rubberband fight and he taught me how to shoot them and B got involved so we were all shooting each other then B stopped shooting and started collecting all the rubberbands on the floor and J and I kept shooting at each other. He alwyays hit my ass and hardly there boobs and everything haha so I went closer and tried to actually hit him because every single one of mine missed so when I did he picked me up and put me in the chair and we wrestled around there and B was like "Okay J time to quit mackin" it made me chuckle and he didnt stop until the teacher was like what is going on hahaha. Then we were hanging out talking a little and we both only had one rubberband left so I ended up stealing his and when he was about to leave I was standing in his way and he's like oh want a hug and I said of course! and got my rubberband out and got ready to shoot him but he saw and spun away just in time so he was walknig out the door and I shot him. It made it through the closing door crack and everything :) it hit him and I ran and hid under his desk and he came after me and shot me under the desk and left haha :)

Just thinking about him makes me smile. It's hilarious and so fun. Meep :)

Stay strong ladies. I'm trying so hard to today <33

Mehblehbleh

I almost forgot the most important part! But we were laying there and he said he figured some things out about me. I asked what and he said he wanted me to tell him. So I did. Idk how he knew about the non eating thing but then I asked how he knew and he told me he used to have an eating disorder. I was in shock. I still am honestly.

This past Friday night....

Will and I had sex haha yeah that's really all I have to say for now except that when I sit my stummy doesn't roll! I'll post pics later :) stay strong darlings

Boys boys boys

So wills coming over tonight. I got a car today :) it's a 2006 dodge charger andnits beautiful black and sexy as hell. I talked to t and he apologized for everything and we went on to talk Anout the guy I'm sorta into right now. He's great and the past two days were non stop flirting :) including a lotion fight and holding hands and what not :D haha stay strog lovelies I'm coming back around

Love and Other Drugs

I'm trying to get back into blogging but going between my Mom and my dads is rough. My birthday is Sunday so that should be ehhish. I'm in a state of question. Anti anxiety and sleeping pills are making me weird. Not to mention a wee bit of smoking hahah. Anyways I'm in a strange mood. Is it better to love and lose then to never love? Heart break sucks and I'm really not sure. Give me your input ladies <3 I hopefully withhold assemble an amazing post soon :) stay strong

Terribly Sorry

I have  been gone for far too long. I'm so sorry. I'm at a consistant 115 weight still and I plan on cutting down intake. So remember that guy I met a little bit ago? W who I will Now be calling Will. While yeahh him and I are a couple. Hes 19 and in college for business. Hes the ideal guy. T's a dick and I told him off. He's out of my life for good. It sucks but its best. Im pretty happy with life even though its been consistant fighting with everyone. They put me on sleeping pills and anti-anxiety pills. I miss you guys so much <3 Best of luck so stay strong and I will try to get caught up on blogs. I miss you guys so thanks for the lovely comments <333

XOXO

I'm sorry I've been gone for far too long. It's been quite stressful. All I've been doing is eating but I'm still at 115. I thank you all for you lovely comments. :) what would I do without you guys! I will post later tonight and hopefully throughout the week as well. Stay strong

10/06/11

I'm simply broken.

Things Fall Apart.

I don't know where to start. Sorry for me neglecting my blogger responsibilities but a lot is happening. Basically my dads an alcoholic. Hes obsessed with money and values it more than family. Theres been lots of fighting and ugly things said so anyways they're getting divorced. He told me all I am to him is baggage and that if I cried he would only see me as a disgrace. Despite this I stayed the night with him here instead of going with my mom. My mom feels like I'm leaving her and i know she hates being alone so its rough. I've been eating non stop to cope and I hate myself. I feel so alone and lost right now.