This is the story of my love. Intertwined with low self esteem and the destruction/hope of an eating disorder.
If he ever finds this maybe he'll understand.. Maybe he'll hate me more.
We live about 30-45 minutes apart.
Hes knew i was terrified of being alone.
I never understood how it could happen.. until I shared everything with him..
He claimed he would always love me and be there for me.. and then
...................................
I made some decisions he didn't love..
And one thing led to another..
He got overwhelmed.. He tried to help but I was too much to handle.. He left me. Alone.
Its so hard to trust..
But i still believed in him, as he did in me..
I couldn't let him down so I let him believe what he desperatly wanted to hear..
but you can only hold yourself together for so long..
and that leads to this...
He firmly believes i'm a different person now the im "better"..
Even when they don't know they sense a difference.
End of Story.
this is so sad, but a brilliant post! i feel your pain, girl, i feel it bad. although my situation isnt like exactly like yours, theres some common ground. i really hope you'll feel better soon, sweetie :)
ReplyDeletethis is so sad! :/ good though! and of course you can use some of my blog, :) xo.
ReplyDeleteThis is beautifully put but awfully sad. It will get better though :)
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I'm sorry, Sophie. Stay strong, take life one breath at a time.
ReplyDeleteThis is a really fucking beautifully arranged post. I'm sorry, Sophie, I'm so sorry that this is happening to you. Time will make it better, time is just a big bitch when you want her to hurry up.
ReplyDeleteStay strong :)