Pictures :)

So I'm very delayed but here they are :) My noyfriend and I broke up and I haven't been able to eat in 3 days because i'm rather depressed due to him and my father so I don;t have much of an appetite.
Before Arizona and not eating:

After:

Leave me a comment<3

Im back I think

Hello Ladies, Im back! I really am going to try to post a lot more. I've recently got back from a trip to Arizona and I'm incredibly sunburnt.

 I'm somewhat content with my weight but I know I can do better and thats what I want to do.

Exciting Fact!!!!- Guess who is 5'6 :) not 5'4. I'm pretty happy with that

Uhm.. I'm still with my amazing boyfriend and we're very happy so thats helpful. I dont really have much more to say so leave a comment and tell me how you've been and tel me if there's anything you want me to post about. Let me know <3

<3 Always, Sophie

Thin Thoughts

Im going to slowly shrink. It's like a sculpture. You start with a chunk of material and you don't stop until you carve out the peice perfectly. You dont stop until it's done. Never stop.

I am peice of clay. Dirty, dense, and undefined. I'm going to continue carving myself out and define myself into a beautiful masterpeice people admire. I'm not there but slowly and surely little bits and peices are getting closer to their finished state. I hope I get there some day.

Stupid Sophie

Im incrdibly dumb. I havent gone on here in forver, got cheated on, and gained a lot of weight. I'm still with J even after he cheated on me but he's really trying and making it more of a relationship. I met his mom yesterday and hes introducing me to all of his friends. I gained weight and it looks awful so I hope I can lose it all. I miss you girls soooo much <3 Please leave comments and tell me how you've been since theres no way I can possibly go through all your blogs and catch up. Thanks <3

Fucking Friday

So i sick. It sucks. I feel like a fucking elephant is sitting on me. Not uch to update on. I'm glad to be back. I'll probably put a poll up a little later to see what you ladies think about my new blogger life/persona. So yeah. Stay strong and stay antibacterial. Sickness sucks ass.

Health Stats

I'm a 16 year old female.

Blood Pressure: 112 over 70

Resting Heart Rate: 76

I am 114.2 pounds which is 51.9 kilograms

I'm 5 feet 4 inches which is 64 centimeters

BMI: 19.6     :)


Body Composition:

How many pounds of fat I have: 26.3 = 11.9 kg
How many pounds of fat free mass I have (all the other stuff): 87.934 = 40.0 kg

Resting Metabolic Rate/ How many calories I need to keep my organs functioning if i'm not moving at all: 1372

Average calories I need a day: 1853

Musculoskeletal Fitness:
Grip: 65-Very Good
Push Ups: 0- Needs Improvement
Sit and Reach: 45- Excellent
Partial Curl Ups: 35- Excellent
Vertical Jump Strength: 25.4- Needs Improvement
Leg Power: 1838- Needs Improvement

So thats me in case you were interested:)

My Man :D

So in this post i'm going to tell you about my boyfriend. SOOOO if you direct your attention down the page to the guide to people I mention he's on there from before. Will and I have been done for a while but underneath will you'll find J. Thats him :) He makes me happier then I could ever imagine. He is a drug dealer but he keeps his two lives seperate and is the perfect guy for me. We started going out on his birthday :) My mom likes him and knows everything about him so I dont have to hide anything which is such a relief. For christmas the picture below is what he got me! Isn't it beautiful! :) Anyways, I'll post later fter I go to pilates and whatnot. Stay strong.

p.s. still trying to decide what to do with my whole blogging thing. I might just make a health guide one with a lot of personal posts as well that way it totally fits my new lifestyle and I can still support the lovely ladies that helped get me through the tough times. I would post thinspo, excersize facts/tips, some food ideas, and my measurements and health info. Tell me what you think

Long Gone for Far Too Long..

Ahh Darlings, i've missed you all terrribly. I've been gone for months now. Between my distress, parents divorce, and physical attacks it's been quite crazy. I'm at an interesting point in my life. While I was gone i've been physically abused, found love, got kicked out of my house, and found myslef to be content with my body. Im currently 114.2 pounds as of yesterday. I'm happy. I eat what I want when I want.

I recently went on a gym consulatation where they informed me that to keep my organs all functioning i have to eat 1858 calories a day. I do some days. Others I don't but the point im making is I no longer withhold food for weight loss. I learned the less I eat the more lean muscle mass i lose AND i weigh the same as I did when I was starving.

I'm not here to preach or "convert" you. I'm here to support you and receive support from my lovelies. I'm currently not sure whther i'm at a point to continue this blog, create a new one with more focus on me rather than thinspo (I would still include some but not as much) and my healthier habits, or if i should just stop blogging all together. Please leave a comment and tell me what you guys would be interested in <3


Much love <3 As always, Sophie.

Sex, Love, and All the Wrong Reasons.

Alright I think it's time I make myself clear. Yes I'm easy. Yes some view me as a whore. On the other hand there are some out there that understand my point. I'm aware I'm not good enough to be with anyone. I allow guys to use me for sex. It's better that than to be alone and suicidal all the time. That's why I do it. I understand some people have other Motives but in the end it usually boils down to not wanting to be alone. I believe there's a strong difference between making love and sex. Sex is the act of intercourse but making love is trusting and being close enough with someone to have sex on a more emotionally connected level which I find to he total bullshit. If I wanted to connect emotionally I wouldn't be randomly hooking up with these guys. If I was good enough to be more than a sex object I would be in a happy relationship but I'm not. Just had to clarify. Stay strong ladies I'll post tomorrow.

The Crucible Fever

So have any of you guys ever read the crucible? It's actually not a bad book and I'm reading it for my English class. In it the 17 year old girl named Abigail gets some dude to have sex with her even though he's old and married and now she ls tryingto get rid of his wife and be with him while at the same time she's crying out in court that all these innocent people are attacking her with witchcraft and getting them hung and put in jail. Anywayssss ironically enough guess who has to read the part of Abigail in class. Yep. Anyways I just feel like her. I'm so desperate for anyone to love and once I find them they claim it was a mistake and leave me trying to get rid if their girls. Its sad. I totally make up lies to get all my guys new bitches in trouble and make them want me back but just like with Abigail it doesn't work. The only reason she does the crying ou is because she grew up in such a sheltered religious lifestyle that now that she has power she goes crazy which is also strikingly similar to me. I grew up so sheltered and alone that once I realized I could get away with stuff I went crazy and here I am. I have an obsession with guys, im okay with being used for sex, and I tend to experiment with prescription pills. So yeah that's just what I've noticed On the other hand I have a fever and feel like complete shot. I look like a whale and I want to curl up and die. I'm just sick of being alone and I'm ready to get with anyone and everyone. I hope you guys are doing better than I am. Stay strong ladies

So I took will back because I'm pathetic and I hate to be alone. I told T I thought other guys were sexier then him when he asked. He was slightly surprised hahah whatever :) j is sooooo sexy. Everyday with him just makes me smile that much more :) I look skinny today. It's awesome :D I'm off to bed. Toodles lovelies. And thanks for the comments

Skinny Girls Have It Better.

Will cheated on me. Then left me. Yeah. He's the one that left. Pretty pathetic. Story of my life. To him I'm simply a 'stupid high school bitch' and an 'easy skank'. Awesome right? Skinny girls don't get cheated on and then left. The guy at least cheats and chooses to stay. More motivation for me I suppose. Be strong and happy Halloween

Superb Sunday

Shits been crazy lately but on the bright side I feel skinnyish. I need to watch what I eat more but damn it's hard. I'm such a bad blogger I feel like I dropped off r The planet. I'm sorry guys <3 i have to go because my boyfriends being whiny and jealous but stay skinny ladies <3

Sick Days

Sorry im so shitty at consistant blogging. I'm home sick so I have time todayyy :) It's all rainy out which sucks but oh well. I'm trying so hard to be good today but on the bright side theres hardly anything to eat. Will and I are doing okayish. He's all into commitment and shit which idk thats what I used to want but now i'm like ehhhhh. He's just not right for me but I feel bad telling him that. I thought guys were supposed to like no commitment sex. wtf?

Anyways theres sort of a new guy in my life :) He's in my business class and he's been soooo flirty. So remember a long time ago about that bet of me fucking B? Yeah well he found out. Idk if I told you guys that already but yeah ahahha. Hes actually been a lot nicer to me since that but now I don't really want him.
 J, his friend is sooooo seexy. He's already in the guide to people I mention and I tihnk i;m going to put him in tylers place. yeah he flirts with me all the time and of course I flirt back. He's super fun. He always throws things at me and picks me up and fake fights. Hes a blast to be around. I already get texts from the other guys in that class saying how he's such a player and he only wants sex but i'm totally okay with that. I'm super happy and it seems like it's going great. We get in lotion fights and everything always ends up getting physical hahah :)

Yesterday we had a rubberband fight and he taught me how to shoot them and B got involved so we were all shooting each other then B stopped shooting and started collecting all the rubberbands on the floor and J and I kept shooting at each other. He alwyays hit my ass and hardly there boobs and everything haha so I went closer and tried to actually hit him because every single one of mine missed so when I did he picked me up and put me in the chair and we wrestled around there and B was like "Okay J time to quit mackin" it made me chuckle and he didnt stop until the teacher was like what is going on hahaha. Then we were hanging out talking a little and we both only had one rubberband left so I ended up stealing his and when he was about to leave I was standing in his way and he's like oh want a hug and I said of course! and got my rubberband out and got ready to shoot him but he saw and spun away just in time so he was walknig out the door and I shot him. It made it through the closing door crack and everything :) it hit him and I ran and hid under his desk and he came after me and shot me under the desk and left haha :)

Just thinking about him makes me smile. It's hilarious and so fun. Meep :)

Stay strong ladies. I'm trying so hard to today <33

Mehblehbleh

I almost forgot the most important part! But we were laying there and he said he figured some things out about me. I asked what and he said he wanted me to tell him. So I did. Idk how he knew about the non eating thing but then I asked how he knew and he told me he used to have an eating disorder. I was in shock. I still am honestly.

This past Friday night....

Will and I had sex haha yeah that's really all I have to say for now except that when I sit my stummy doesn't roll! I'll post pics later :) stay strong darlings

Boys boys boys

So wills coming over tonight. I got a car today :) it's a 2006 dodge charger andnits beautiful black and sexy as hell. I talked to t and he apologized for everything and we went on to talk Anout the guy I'm sorta into right now. He's great and the past two days were non stop flirting :) including a lotion fight and holding hands and what not :D haha stay strog lovelies I'm coming back around

Love and Other Drugs

I'm trying to get back into blogging but going between my Mom and my dads is rough. My birthday is Sunday so that should be ehhish. I'm in a state of question. Anti anxiety and sleeping pills are making me weird. Not to mention a wee bit of smoking hahah. Anyways I'm in a strange mood. Is it better to love and lose then to never love? Heart break sucks and I'm really not sure. Give me your input ladies <3 I hopefully withhold assemble an amazing post soon :) stay strong

Terribly Sorry

I have  been gone for far too long. I'm so sorry. I'm at a consistant 115 weight still and I plan on cutting down intake. So remember that guy I met a little bit ago? W who I will Now be calling Will. While yeahh him and I are a couple. Hes 19 and in college for business. Hes the ideal guy. T's a dick and I told him off. He's out of my life for good. It sucks but its best. Im pretty happy with life even though its been consistant fighting with everyone. They put me on sleeping pills and anti-anxiety pills. I miss you guys so much <3 Best of luck so stay strong and I will try to get caught up on blogs. I miss you guys so thanks for the lovely comments <333

XOXO

I'm sorry I've been gone for far too long. It's been quite stressful. All I've been doing is eating but I'm still at 115. I thank you all for you lovely comments. :) what would I do without you guys! I will post later tonight and hopefully throughout the week as well. Stay strong